Sweet Nothing

You took my heart and you held it in your mouth 
And with a word all my love came rushing out 

In this new life I have been leaving for a month I have been trying to be as busy as possible, trying to catch every single opportunity to feel happy and build a better version of myself. I am trying to go regularly to the gym and get a stronger body in which I can feel confident but most of all happy. Happiness is my everyday goal but even in the summer there are cloudy days. You don't see it coming, sometime clouds appear even when sun is shining in the sky.
When it comes to you, I never see it coming. You are my sun and my clouds at the same time. Every time I speak to you, I feel the happiest girl in the world. 
I am happy of having you in my life. We can talk about everything for hours and don't get tired. But then something unexpectedly sweet comes out of your lips. And clouds come back to my sky. When you said those things I am totally confused about us. What are we? What could we be? 
Unfortunately I will never answer these questions because we are living in different places and cities and situations. And the worst part is that you own my heart. And I don't know when I will be able to rid out of you, when I will be able to love someone else or when I will be brave enough to tell you what I feel and rid out of my huge regret as small as a kiss.