Ghosts

I keep going to the river to pray

'Cause I need something that can wash out the pain

And at most I'm sleeping all these demons away

But your ghost, the ghost of you

It keeps me awake

Less than a month ago my life has totally changed. And even if I wanted this change badly I'm still in the process of getting used to all this "new world".

I moved to a new city, I'm living with new people, I'm speaking a new language and I'm attending a new University. And I'm really excited of all this "new", I'm the happiest I've ever been in my life. I'm finally living the life I was looking for.

I'm feeling exactly the way I expected to feel when I was dreaming about this life I wanted so bad. But never in my dreams I thought that this would happened to me.

I see ghosts.

Everyday walking in the street I see people running to their work or school and I always have the impression I have seen them before but back home. My mind keeps carrying people from my old life to this new one and this makes me feel very confused. Sometimes I'm about to wave at any person in front of me and then I realize that she is not my neighbor but she is just an old lady doing some grocery shopping. Everything looks so familiar and unknown at the same time that it makes me feel lost. Alone. It makes me think of my old life and wondering if leaving my friends, my family, my home, my city was the correct thing to do. 

But then I wake up in the morning and I realize I'm ensuring me a future and I'm having the best education I can have, I jump out of the bed (literally, because sometimes my bed holds me for those extra 10 minutes) and a strong feeling take the control of my mind: happiness.

So, I don't care if I keep seeing ghosts all over my way. I'm happy. And I'm sure that if I keep smiling at them, I can bring them back to life and not feel intimidated by them. They will become my friends.